A Letter

To : Oppa

Oppa, Annyeong :-) 

Oppa. I want to tell you a story. The stories that all of fangirl around the world have done. 

Oppa, i had to like you for a long time ago. I like your smile, your laugh and your habit though. Do you want to know when it started? First, i just know your name from my schoolmates. I listen to your song. I watched all of your MV. And I'm happy when you won a throphy from comeback. Yeah, just like that. Really simple, right? I never imagine a strong feeling like that. But i felt it already. now, i know the feeling of liking someone. How happy i'm to saw your smile. How to laughing when other's fooling around me. I was happy all the time.  Do you know, Oppa? When i being tired from school, i saw you and magically i didnt felt that again. I became happy and forgot all of the matters.

But... Oppa, you know that happy moments isn't long, right? It's also happened to me. I cries a lot during this time. Its hard, Oppa. To liking you as well, i realized that i didnt good enough. I don't have that qualification. When i return to the fact, i just a stranger for you. From the start, i know that its just unrequited love. A really sad unrequited love. I know you, but you didnt know me. I searched all about you, but you never care. I dedicated all of my whole free times for you, but its nothing. In my eyes, youre my everything. But in your eyes, im just a fans in the crowded place. That is me, to you. 

I know that you're trying to be good to all of your fans, you've worked hard to make your fans happy and not being dissapointed. Because you know that they're worked hard too, for you. Just for you. Oppa, i always tried to tell myself that youre just like my brothers. But it doesnt work. I liked you as a man. I felt ssick when you didnt won in award. I felt jealous when beautiful girls around you. It isn;t normal, right? I have never fallen so far like that. You made me stuck even though we never met for real.

Oppa, i want to tell you everything. I want to tell you how hurt for being your fans and how happy it was. But i couldnt. Oppa, you've worked hard for us for past ten years. So, this is a time for you to being happy. Meeting with your dream girl, have a family, and be a good husband and father. I wont scold you like last time. I wont do that. I dont want to being greedy and egoist. I know my limit though. You have your own life either me. But promise me that you'll never change so that i can let you go. How?? Is it good? Let's promise each other for not to change. 

Oppa, this is the ending of my story. It is happy ending, isn't it? The one who start should've end the story. Oppa, untill the end i will not let your hand go. Trust me.

PS : Forgot the grammar xD

Sincerely,

Your Fans